Relief!

Brandon and I are back from the Dr's office (plus a Lowes and Office Max run). My anxiety was for nothing (you were right Nikki!). She just likes to have both parents-to-be (soon or current) in for the consultation and so that she can answer any questions. I was so full of emotion and so tense that when she said everything was looking great and we were on the road to reproduction (or as I like to refer to it "producing a little Hale!") (sorry if I'm oversharing!) that I started to cry. I could literally feel every ounce of anxiety flow out of my body and into the trash can. I had to give more blood (left arm wouldn't cooperate, Nurse Needle didn't want to use the same vein from last week b/c it's still bruised, and so I got stuck in both arms) and I'll get more results in tomorrow. Thank you all so much for your prayers and concern ~ love shout out to the blog family!

With all of this stuff going on, I realized today that I am starved for God. The thing is, that it's a sporadic, short term starvation. I take time out of my day to do so many other things other than "hunger and thirst for righteousness." With the hunger that Brandon and I have for this child(ren) to come, I can't even imagine the hunger that God has for us to recognize and love Him. Sitting in the car at the last red light before the Dr's.'s office, it all just hit me in the face like a cold splash of water ~ the love and compassion that I have for a baby is but a speck compared to the love and compassion that God has for me.

Thank you Father, for your love, compassion, grace and forgiveness. Thank you for moments of realization and recognition of mixed up priorities. Thank you for the possibility of being a parent and the chance to see your heart and what it must have felt like for you to create this world and everything in it. Please forgive me for being so foolish and self-centered.

Tidings of Joy... and good results! :)